Sunday, June 17, 2012


Wish I knew how to fix this. I stay up late because I don't want to go to bed to face another day of boredom, loneliness, depression and anxiety. I don't want to wake up for the same reasons.  My sleeping pattern has shifted once again and now wake up around noon which is very acceptable. However, because I have nothing to get up for I end up staying in bed for several more hours drifting. I always wake up from a dream state in which I have so many encounters and new experiences that it seem far more exciting than my actual reality. However, there comes a point where I can't drift any longer so I get up. The later the better.

Could I live in my dream state forever.....that would be a happy existence for me. So superior.

~ Tutte ~