Wednesday, August 18, 2010


Oh, how I wish this has been my experience but it isn't and it saddens me to the bone. I need her but she doesn't need me and I can't bridge the gap regardless of how many times I have tried throughout my life. I expect I never will. A tremendous loss which I am aware of but she isn't. We are the only two who share similar memories of our childhood years before we immigrated to Canada and the entire family we were so familiar with. I have a great need to revisit those but she obviously doesn't. Not yet anyway. Perhaps someday and then it might be too late.

~ Tutte ~