Friday, August 20, 2010


There is always a light of Hope to focus on during the moments when the despair dissipates momentarily. As it does for me eventually after I awaken with the blackest thoughts possible. I HATE waking up. Why I have to spend hours talking myself into a lighter train of thought and do a complete switch. Often it provokes a lot of Anxiety which affects me physically so two things to deal with. It's so difficult and energy sapping. Wish it wouldn't happen. No doubt my dreams have a lot to do with it since I always wake up in the middle of a dream when I have been so active/interactive and creative. The rest of my day can never compare to the activities I have in that realm.

~ Tutte ~